Leaning into time
Sometimes it’s difficult to accept the gifts we are given. When Steve and I decided to move to New Mexico I knew that it would take a while to rebuild my therapy practice. I told myself (and anyone else who would listen) that I would take this free time as a gift and use it to increase my meditation practice, to read and write and take time to reconnect with myself. Yeah right. At first I was busy unpacking and finding my way around and free time wasn’t really an issue. But now as I come to the end of the boxes it’s time to unwrap this gift of time. And I am finding it incredibly difficult to accept it. The judgmental voice in my head says, “but you should be working more, it’s your job, it’s what you do” and so when I have free time between clients my impulse is to frantically do things to build the practice. And yet I know that if I don’t accept this gift of time now, I never will. This is the time to read and think and work on my book (yes, I really am writing one), to walk and take in the beauty around me, to connect on a deeper level with the people I love, and to allow myself time to notice what’s going on in my soul. So with gratitude for this gift that has been given me I intend to write a few times a week about the different ways I am accepting and leaning into this gift of time. Do you find it challenging to accept the time when it comes your way? How do you give yourself permission to lean into it and what are your favorite ways to do so? Before the time is only memories….