Relationship Garden Blog

On Looking in the Mirror

admin — Thu, 23 Feb 2012 21:40:49 +0000

I’ve been reading Brene Brown’s powerful book on shame and shame resiliency, “I Thought It Was Just Me, but it isn’t”. In the chapter on Practicing Critical Awareness she discusses the expectations women have regarding their physical appearance, and the impact these expectations have on our lives. As I read the chapter I had an “aha” moment, and it wasn’t a happy one. I realized that not once, truly not once, have I ever looked in a mirror and liked what I saw. Even when I was young and thin and without wrinkles and stretch marks I still judged myself with a relentlessly critical eye. And as I think of this I am deeply saddened by how harsh I have been towards myself, and how much joy I have missed out on while judging myself.

So I thought, “well, I’ll make a vow to let go of these negative thoughts.” ah, easier said than done. When I tried to see myself without judgment I felt guilty, as though I was somehow cheating by not focusing on looking the way I think I should.

I think this may be more difficult than I first thought.

So today I am starting a new discipline – to look at myself in the mirror and simply be curious about what I see without judging either good or bad. What do I see, I wonder what that smile is about, or why my hair is lying a certain way, or what life experience lies behind that wrinkle. I think it’s going to be an interesting journey – I’ll keep you posted. Your comments on moving through shame and judgement on issues of appearance would be most welcome.

For more of Brene Brown’s work check out her website

http://www.brenebrown.com/

The Essence of Love

admin — Thu, 09 Feb 2012 21:04:07 +0000

“Love consists in this, that two solitudes protect and touch and greet each other. “

Rainer Maria Rilke

This time of year love is everywhere, and we are deluged with articles examining all aspects of this four letter word. I am often bemused by how much we use this word, and yet how unclear we are as to what it means to us. Lao -Tzu once asked his disciples “what is the fragrance of a rose?” and of course they could not define it. The same is, I think, true for love. We may know what love feels like, but it is oh so hard to define. One of my favorite definitions is in the quote above. Another comes from author and researcher Dr. Brene Brown who says, “Love is not something we give or get; it is something we nurture and grow.” The ancient Greeks had three words for love: Agape or deep and abiding love, Eros or passionate love and Philia or affectionate love. I have heard love defined as a choice or a commitment, and described as a wave.

For me love is about a deep sense of connection that transcends our limitations. It is about connection of the heart, of the mind, of the body and of the soul. It is knowing each other for good and for bad, and being gentle and accepting of each others’ imperfections, caring for each others’ pain, holding each others’ dreams with care, challenging each other to grow, and simply gazing at each other with a wonder that says, “you are an amazing gift in my life and I cherish all of you.” And we say this with all of our hearts, and then we hold on tight and ride the waves.

So those are this year’s musings on love – Wishing you a beautiful, love-full Valentines Day

I would be most delighted to hear your thoughts on the meaning of love.

Holiday Dialogues

admin — Fri, 02 Dec 2011 13:53:45 +0000

We think of holidays as times of joy and family connection. Memories of delicious meals and visions of children happily opening gifts are dear to our heart. Unfortunately holidays can also be a time of stress and disappointment. We tend to hold ourselves and each other to high standards, and when we don’t live up to them we may feel badly about ourselves and sometimes take it out on each other. In addition to good memories holidays often hold memories of disconnect, disappointment and pain. When we don’t talk about them, painful memories and feelings from years past tend to sabotage the present. Below you will find two dialogues. The first is appropriate to share with your partner before any major holiday. It invites you to be conscious and intentional about the holiday experience you want to create and to discuss how to support each other in that process. The second is appropriate to use after any holiday, vacation or major event to process what happened, both the good and the bad. It invites you to claim what you did right, to explore what wasn’t what you had hoped for and to think about how to handle it better in the future. Print them out and use whenever you need them.

Let me know if they are helpful…

Holiday Traditions

What I loved about this holiday as a child

If relevant, what was tough about this holiday when I was growing up, or share any painful memories associated with the holiday

What I love about how we have celebrated this holiday in the past

One worry I have about the holidays this year

One way I’m hoping we can support each other this year

One thing you can do to keep me safe

One thing I could do to keep you safe

My dream for the holiday this year

Processing a trip or holiday or party

What I like most about how we handled ____________ is

What was difficult for me about it was

What we might do differently next time is

If we could do that what I imagine would change is

What I appreciated about you during _____________ was

What I was proud of or pleased about how I handled things was

As I think about the overall experience what I am feeling in my body is….

Oxytocin, morality, trust and empathy

admin — Fri, 18 Nov 2011 20:43:21 +0000

In the Imago Getting the Love You Want workshop we talk a lot about the importance of empathy in sustaining loving relationships. On the second morning of a recent workshop, as I checked my emails prior to starting, I clicked on the link to Paul Zak’s TED talk on the connection between oxytocin levels and trust, trustworthiness, morality and empathy. I was blown away. I quote: “it’s empathy that makes us connect to other people, …it’s empathy that makes us moral.” I especially love his conclusion – that the best way to enhance oxytocin levels and hence empathy and moral behavior is simply – to hug! The more often we hold each other, the more we connect, the more we touch each other in loving ways, the more oxytocin is generated, the more empathy we feel, and the more trustworthy and moral our interactions become. Paul Zak recommends we hug each other eight times a day. Couldn’t have said it better myself!

enjoy!

Paul Zak TED talk on the role of oxytocin in empathy, trust and morality

Mourning Visionary Steve Jobs

admin — Thu, 06 Oct 2011 13:48:48 +0000

These inspiring words from Steve Jobs, the founder of Apple Computer, talk to me about how crucial it is to follow your dreams and live from your heart – even when no one else understands why you are doing what you are doing, even when it is very difficult.

“Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. Don’t settle. As with all matters of the heart, you’ll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don’t settle.”
– Stanford commencement speech 2005

On the power of Human Connection

admin — Mon, 19 Sep 2011 13:16:05 +0000

This summer, through the power of serendipity, I saw three not so new movies, all of which dealt beautifully with the question of why we need each other and the powerful drive to connect with and care for other human beings. In all three movies, The Station Agent, The Visitor and Lars and the Real Girl, the lead character sees himself as damaged and unlovable, and yet, in sprite of himself, is drawn into the human community through caring for, and being cared for by others. As each comes alive and risks connection, he finds himself healed. Check out this trailer for “Lars and the Real Girl”

Enjoy!

Hallelujah, The Great Storm is Over

admin — Sun, 28 Aug 2011 21:04:59 +0000

Sometimes it takes great peril to shake us up and bring us back to basics. Last night, as the wind howled and the rain poured down I was so aware that all that mattered to me was that those I love and cherish be safe and well. All else paled in comparison. So this morning, as we clean up the mess and begin to get back to our lives I want to recommit myself to keeping this simple truth in the front of my awareness. Wishing all of you safety and warmth, electricity that stays on and streets that dry out. Enjoy this wonderful song of gratitude and redemption by singer songwriter John McCutcheon. Hallelujah, The Great Storm is Over!

The Role of Happiness in a Good Life

admin — Wed, 10 Aug 2011 12:38:35 +0000

Several weeks ago I was honored to attend the wedding of two lovely friends. When the minister, the Reverend Kent Matthies, was giving the homily he commented on the happiness these two have given each other and he started to say that “happiness is necessary…” and I thought he was going to say for a good marriage. Instead he said “happiness is necessary for a good life.”

I was very struck by this. We all know the truism that you have to love yourself before you can love others. This seems to go deeper though. It says to me that in order to be engaged, in order to care, in order to give to others with an open heart we need to know contentment and joy ourselves. There is a sense that it is difficult to live in a meaningful way unless we are grounded in our own well-being.

This idea flies a bit in the face of the image of the self-less giver whose only thought is for others. It strikes a balance between self-centered hedonism, and self-less altruism. It says that the truly good life is one in which our care for others grows organically out of our care for ourselves and our joy in the world we inhabit. I am reminded of the meditation I learned from the Buddhist sage Thich Nhat Hahn “aware of my body I breathe in, smiling at the world I breathe out.” He says, “because of your smile you make life more beautiful.”

So smiling out my window at my garden I embrace this world and the day that lies before me. I would love to hear your thoughts on the role of happiness in leading our lives, and what it takes to live a good life.

Message of Light from Norway

admin — Wed, 27 Jul 2011 16:57:35 +0000

In recent years it often seems that anger, resentment, intolerance and hate threaten to overwhelm the voices of those who work for healing and peace. All too often acts of violence create a depth of pain that leads to retribution and further violence. And yet in the midst of despair there is hope. In the midst of darkness there is the promise of light.

I am part of a broad Imago community in many countries across the globe, including many talented therapists and educators in Norway. As we heard of the horrifying acts of violence and hate earlier this week my first thoughts were for these friends, and the families of the victims. One of our colleagues, Jorunn Overboe shared the beautiful and courageous response of the Norwegian people to those who would overwhelm the world with violence and hate. I share it with you in humility and love:

“Thank you for thinking of us and for sending your greetings!!That means a
lot!!

We are all in Norway touched by this tragedy, and I know people who are
closely touched.

I hope you and all the rest of the world have seen pictures from the
Norwegian peoples answer to this horror today: Hate with love, darkness
with light, coldness with warmth, evil and cruelty with caring, closeness
and togetherness, and endless of flowers and lights all over the country.
Shoulders by shoulders we filled the streets with love.”

Sincerely Jorunn Oeverboe

How much courage it takes to meet anger with compassion, coldness with warmth, darkness with light. Please share your thoughts on what we can all do to spread this message of light and love.

Feeling More Than or Less Than and the Experience of Shame

admin — Mon, 21 Mar 2011 13:33:43 +0000

In the Wissahickon Center’s Women’s Support Group, Finding the Heart’s Center, we are exploring issues of shame and authenticity. This week we will be looking at why it is that so often we see ourselves as either being “too much” or “not enough,” and the shame that happens when those feelings wash over us. I am reminded of the opening scene from the wonderful movie about Tina Turner, “What’s Love Got to Do With It.” In the scene the little Tina (maybe five years old) is singing her heart out in the church choir, but the choir director is threatened by her exuberance and keeps shutting her down, until she is finally tossed out of church. Even that doesn’t quench her spirit – she does not fold until she experiences abandonment and rejection.

I woke up this morning thinking about these twin poles of shame, and what it takes to move past and through them. Some thoughts I have:

1. Be honest with ourselves about who we truly are, and let go of trying to be what others want

2. Be gentle with ourselves when we are less than perfect and recognize that imperfection is the human condition and that that is ok.

3. Have the courage to speak our truth gently to others when it is helpful and constructive to do so.

4. and Work to see our own value and worth as sufficient to themselves, without comparing them to the accomplishments and value of others.

I would welcome your ideas on self-worth and shame – when do you feel more or less than, and what is helpful to you in sorting through these feelings?